February 2012
26 posts
Ambition.
We were talking about ambition in Film today some, as one of the themes of Evita (a really cool movie, by the way). And it’s a weird thing. It seems to have two, very different connotations. One is good, like you’re doing something with your life, you have goals. The other is basically like pride, but bad. It has the connotation of being willing to do anything to achieve one’s...
March.
I’m dreading it so much. I don’t deal with things like that well at all. It took me almost two weeks to open my AP Calculus score report two summers ago. This will be even worse. It’s impossible to prepare myself enough for the letdown. Oh well. I guess there’s one good that will come out of it, in a sense. In a few weeks, all of the people who had confidence in me will...
Does it annoy anybody else that there are no...
Just wondering. Because it definitely annoys me sometimes.
“And it is true what you said, that I live like a hermit in my own head.”
– Marching Bands of Manhattan, Death Cab for Cutie
Stupid essays.
Finally finished that idiotic application. urgh. That was no fun. No fun at all. I’m so sick of writing things. I’ll probably have to do some more scholarships soon. But for now, I’m done, and very glad of it.
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National State of the Year?
Okay, so I’ve been thinking about this for a while. I think it would be super awesome to have some sort of program to nominate a National State of the Year each year (or maybe every two or four years). States would put together bids detailing what they have to offer (though they wouldn’t be required to submit a bid every year, of course), and a national committee would decide which...
Frustration.
This is the sort of thing that I had always thought would only happen with football players and cheerleaders. Or in disney channel movies about cheerleaders and football players. Seriously, I just don’t get it. And I don’t know what to do.
Just bought a biography of Napoleon.
It’s 800 pages long. Let’s see how this goes.
I have nothing to complain about.
I seriously have a good life right now. So anybody who hears me complain, please hit me. I just want to be everybody’s friend right now. If I can help anybody with their problems, don’t be afraid to ask, and I will try.
Sometimes I really want to become a politician.
I want to make people see how dumb they are sometimes. And maybe I could say something in a different way. But I know that nobody would listen. Urgh. People suck. Just look at our world. But how can anybody change it?
Writing...
I cannot focus! I can’t write this stupid history essay, and it’s going to be even worse when I try to write these even stupider essays for this application. I don’t know why. I just wish my brain would cooperate.
But this whole term, and especially today, I have just hated writing. I’m so so sick of it. I used to enjoy writing a lot of things. But it’s just...
Today has been basically the definition of...
Nothing has been that horrible. But nothing has really been good. I’ve just felt kinda tired and out of it the whole day. And completely uninspired. Oh well. Busy weekend ahead.
Teachers. And me.
Sometimes it’s hard to really think of teachers as people. In high school, it’s definitely become much easier as I’ve gotten to know some teachers very well, and even see some outside of school. But even so, they’re mainly just the people that teach me, some better than others, a particular subject. But in the last few weeks, a few different teachers have said things that...
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“I hated being careful, too - or wanted to, at least.”
– Looking for Alaska, John Green
Looking for Alaska
So, I just finished Looking for Alaska. I started it today about about 2:00. I’m pretty proud of myself. It was an awesome book, and I would totally recommend it to everyone. It will definitely leave me thinking for a while. I love books like that.
But also, it felt really good to just read, to get totally lost in a book that I’m choosing to read and enjoy reading, to read when I...
Human brains suck. →
This is so interesting. And depressing, because I’m pretty sure I fall for a lot of these. And so does everybody else. I want to be Vulcan.