February 2012
22 posts
Does it annoy anybody else that there are no...
Just wondering. Because it definitely annoys me sometimes.
“And it is true what you said, that I live like a hermit in my own head.”
– Marching Bands of Manhattan, Death Cab for Cutie
Stupid essays.
Finally finished that idiotic application. urgh. That was no fun. No fun at all. I’m so sick of writing things. I’ll probably have to do some more scholarships soon. But for now, I’m done, and very glad of it.
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National State of the Year?
Okay, so I’ve been thinking about this for a while. I think it would be super awesome to have some sort of program to nominate a National State of the Year each year (or maybe every two or four years). States would put together bids detailing what they have to offer (though they wouldn’t be required to submit a bid every year, of course), and a national committee would decide which...
Frustration.
This is the sort of thing that I had always thought would only happen with football players and cheerleaders. Or in disney channel movies about cheerleaders and football players. Seriously, I just don’t get it. And I don’t know what to do.
Just bought a biography of Napoleon.
It’s 800 pages long. Let’s see how this goes.
I have nothing to complain about.
I seriously have a good life right now. So anybody who hears me complain, please hit me. I just want to be everybody’s friend right now. If I can help anybody with their problems, don’t be afraid to ask, and I will try.
Sometimes I really want to become a politician.
I want to make people see how dumb they are sometimes. And maybe I could say something in a different way. But I know that nobody would listen. Urgh. People suck. Just look at our world. But how can anybody change it?
Writing...
I cannot focus! I can’t write this stupid history essay, and it’s going to be even worse when I try to write these even stupider essays for this application. I don’t know why. I just wish my brain would cooperate.
But this whole term, and especially today, I have just hated writing. I’m so so sick of it. I used to enjoy writing a lot of things. But it’s just...
Today has been basically the definition of...
Nothing has been that horrible. But nothing has really been good. I’ve just felt kinda tired and out of it the whole day. And completely uninspired. Oh well. Busy weekend ahead.
Teachers. And me.
Sometimes it’s hard to really think of teachers as people. In high school, it’s definitely become much easier as I’ve gotten to know some teachers very well, and even see some outside of school. But even so, they’re mainly just the people that teach me, some better than others, a particular subject. But in the last few weeks, a few different teachers have said things that...
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“I hated being careful, too - or wanted to, at least.”
– Looking for Alaska, John Green
Looking for Alaska
So, I just finished Looking for Alaska. I started it today about about 2:00. I’m pretty proud of myself. It was an awesome book, and I would totally recommend it to everyone. It will definitely leave me thinking for a while. I love books like that.
But also, it felt really good to just read, to get totally lost in a book that I’m choosing to read and enjoy reading, to read when I...
Human brains suck. →
This is so interesting. And depressing, because I’m pretty sure I fall for a lot of these. And so does everybody else. I want to be Vulcan.
Vlogbrothers.
Okay, so I’m kinda hooked. These guys are hilarious. I don’t know how I’ve gone so long without knowing about them (except I realized that I actually watched the one about currency a long time ago). But they’re so insightful and funny and unique. And NERDY! John is awesome at discussing books. Like The Great Gatsby. I really want to read his books now. So thank you to the...
January 2012
22 posts
Just a thought.
Every few years, there seems to be some sort of conspiracy theory about the end of the world. Y2K. Harold Camping. The Mayan Calendar. They’re nonsense, and you dismiss them as such. Everybody does… right?
But isn’t there a little tiny part of the back of your mind that’s afraid that it could be right? Everything logical says that there’s no way it could be true....
Interview
Did an interview with Harvard this morning. It was actually not bad at all. It was scheduled the night before, kinda crazy last minute. But the guy was really nice, and I felt laid-back; it was just easy to talk. Also, I went into the interview thinking that I didn’t like Harvard much, but my mind is somewhat changed now. So I’ll just have to wait and see now. Yay college craziness.
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“The selection of a Republican candidate for the presidency of this globalized...”
– Fidel Castro, who was the subject of several barbs during a GOP debate in Florida. (via officialssay)
Math.
I’m absolutely loving math again. I thought that I might not like it as much after such a long break. Especially because during that 1.5 year break, I’ve really started loving History a ton. But it’s absolutely fantastic. I get a problem, and I just try to make it more difficult and more interesting. I want to always learn more math. It’s just so logical, and so real. Math...
I want to do something I'm really proud of.
Something for which I really feel good about myself. An accomplishment of some sort. But I just feel so incredibly mediocre as of late, like I’m doing the bare minimum and not really succeeding. It’s been quite a while. I just don’t know what to do.
Well, that was pretty much not a good night.
I really wish I could enjoy dances more. But this one was definitely worse than others, for a lot of reasons (many not actually related to the dance). Definitely a very blah day today. At least it’s raining.
Rain
Things I like about rain:
1. The sound. Nothing is more relaxing than rain pattering on thin roofs and water and windows. Nothing.
2. The smell. I don’t know why rain has a smell, because it’s water. But it does. It’s so clean and refreshing.
3. The puddles. It’s so much fun to jump in puddles, and kick water at other people. Good clean fun (although you might get a...
Urrrrggghhhh.
Sometimes parents can really just be a drag. It’s not that I don’t recognize all the things they do for me, because I do. But really, I feel like they’re kinda ridiculous at the moment…
Effervescent Mint
I just opened a tube of toothpaste flavored “effervescent mint.” What does that even mean?! Last time I was in CVS, I counted 12 different Crest variations of mint flavor. I guess it’s a marketing ploy, but it’s just absolutely ridiculous to me. I don’t think there’s any difference in flavor, and some of the names are just ridiculous, like “Winter Fresh...
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Ah Zelda, you truly are an amazing game. Everybody...
Exercise
Sometimes exercise is really great. It’s probably some endorphin thing, but I don’t especially like biology, and I don’t especially care. But two nights ago, I was feeling really stressed and edgy but lethargic at the same time. Then I ran a few miles (yay new running shoes!) and I felt calm and relaxed, but inspired at the same time. Today, I was feeling very bleaugh and nothing...
No homework?
Well, the term’s over. But to tell the truth, I’m kinda bored. I have absolutely nothing to do, and I can’t even start on stuff for next term. Oh well. Maybe I’ll just keep playing Zelda.
Last day.
One day left. It’s going to be a really really long two hours, but at 12:30, the worst academic experience of my life will be over. I just get sad and mad thinking about it. But I really hope that people don’t just take the attitude of “I’m done, so let’s just run away.” I want to make sure that other people aren’t stuck with this same horrible situation....
Don’t beat yourself up over it. It’s in the past, nothing you can do about it now. And life is just fine anyway… right?
Don’t beat yourself up over it. It’s in the past, nothing you can do about it now. And life is just fine anyway… right?
Losing stuff.
I seriously don’t get how I can lose stuff this often. Everything! And in the dumbest ways. Sometimes I don’t have a clue how they get lost, like my running shoes and my grey jacket (which someone told me was stolen). Other times, it’s really really obvious. And I feel like slamming my head into a wall. Either way, it’s incredibly annoying. I should tie everything I have...
Done.
That was a thoroughly miserable experience, at least 90% of it. I hate the common app, and I hate ridiculous prompts, and horrible deadlines, and different expectations from school to school, and mostly, I hate that we all get judged as “good enough” or “not good enough” by a few pieces of paper. Oh well, so goes the world.
And now, I think I’m coasting for the next...
2011.
Well, 2011 was an interesting year. There were some really really amazing times, a ton of great new experiences, some very sad times, and a lot of events that impacted my future. I think I can say that it was the year in which I lived the most, so far at least. Now on to 2012, sure to me a lot more of everything above. It started off quite well, but the next few days aren’t looking so...
December 2011
23 posts
Redding.
That was wonderful. A fantastic trip. Damburger, the river trail, Eli, Addison, Carson, two old teachers, Girondas, the new RSA building, Sundial Bridge, Mt. Shasta Mall, and just driving around on all of my old streets. I remember so many little things, all with memories attached, but it wasn’t really sad this time at all. Sure, there are definitely parts I miss, but I kinda know that...
Burnt out.
I’m so sick of college essays. I’m doing so much work, just to get rejected in a few months. And seriously, do you need 3 essays, in addition to the general common app one? Ugh.
I just want to sleep…
Christmas!
So, the bad news: I have a canker sore, and the next few days are going to be a ton of homework and college apps.
The good news: everything else.
Overall, a very nice Christmas.
Christmas Eve.
I went to bed at about midnight, and couldn’t go to sleep. I wasn’t really super excited about today, and I wasn’t really thinking about Christmas even. So I guess it’s just sort of my brain with an annual clock saying “YOU CAN’T SLEEP TONIGHT, IT’S CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” to me. Weird. Oh well, it’s Christmas now!
I feel like I'm an incredibly jaded person.
I don’t know where this mood came from. But it’s not a whole lot of fun.